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flipbook13 @ 2005-11-18T21:24:00

2005-11-19T02:24:14Z

After 350 entries, 1,525 comments posted and 1,084 recieved I've decided to give up on this journal. I need to move onto something new and better in the realm of online journaling.
On top of that I've gone by the moniker "Flipbook" for too long. I can't stand to look at it anymore. The story behind that name is extremely stupid and I don't claim it as my own anymore. If you still want to read what I have to say, ask and I will tell.

flipbook13 @ 2005-11-18T19:06:00

2005-11-19T00:06:58Z

I'm pissy right now, and I don't know why. It sucks

flipbook13 @ 2005-11-13T16:29:00

2005-11-13T21:29:54Z

Do you Indigo?

Indigo Adult Characteristics

* Are intelligent, though may not have had top grades.

* Are very creative and enjoy making things.

* Always need to know WHY, especially why they are being asked to do something.

* Had disgust and perhaps loathing for much of the required and repetitious work in school.

* Were rebellious in school in that they refused to do homework and rejected authority of teachers, OR seriously wanted to rebel, but didn't DARE, usually due to parental pressure.

* May have experienced early existential depression and feelings of helplessness. These may have ranged from sadness to utter despair. Suicidal feelings while still in high school or younger are not uncommon in the Indigo Adult.

* Have difficulty in service-oriented jobs. Indigos resist authority and caste system of employment.

* Prefer leadership positions or working alone to team positions.

* Have deep empathy for others, yet an intolerance of stupidity.

* May be extremely emotionally sensitive including crying at the drop of a hat (no shielding) Or may be the opposite and show no expression of emotion (full shielding).

* May have trouble with RAGE.

* Have trouble with systems they consider broken or ineffective, ie. political, educational, medical, and legal.

* Alienation from or anger with politics - feeling your voice won't count and/or that the outcome really doesn't mattter.

* Frustration with or rejection of the traditional American dream - 9-5 career, marriage, 2.5 children, house with white picket fence, etc.

* Anger at rights being taken away, fear and/or fury at "Big Brother watching you."

* Have a burning desire to do something to change and improve the world. May be stymied what to do. May have trouble identifying their path.

* Have psychic or spiritual interest appear fairly young - in or before teen years.

* Had few if any Indigo role models. Having had some doesn't mean you're not an indigo, though.

* Have strong intuition.

* Random behavior pattern or mind style - (symptoms of Attention Deficit Disorder). May have trouble focusing on assigned tasks, may jump around in conversations.

* Have had psychic experiences, such as premonitions, seeing angels or ghosts, out of body experiences, hearing voices.

* May be electrically sensitive such as watches not working and street lights going out as you move under them, electrical equipment malfunctioning and lights blowing out.

* May have awareness of other dimensions and parallel realities.

* Sexually are very expressive and inventive OR may reject sexuality in boredom or with intention of achieving higher spiritual connection. May explore alternative types of sexuality.

* Seek meaning to their life and understanding about the world May seek this through religion or spirituality, spiritual groups and books, self-help groups and books.

* When they find balance they may become very strong, healthy, happy individuals.

I'm bored

2005-11-13T20:25:40Z

1. Of all the bands/artists in your CD/record collection, which one do you own the most albums by?: Ryan Adams/Whiskeytown

2. What was the last song you listened to?: The Sky Is Crying - Stevie Ray Vaughn

3. What's in your record player right now?: Car has Poorboy Johnson and The Goddamn Rattlesnake, the computer I’m on has Carbon Leaf, my computer has Matt and Kim, my CD player has Amanda Noa, my tape player has The Pogues and my turn table has Ryan Adams

4. What song would you say sums you up?: Who knows, you tell me.

5. What's your favorite local band?: Maple I guess, maybe Afrosheen.

6. What was the last show you attended?: Poorboy Johnson and The Goddamn Rattlesnake feat. Crozier

7. What was the greatest show you've ever been to?: CSNY at the MCI Center

8. What's the worst band you've ever seen in concert?: The Few, saw them last night, the leader singer is a hate crime waiting to happen

9. What band do you love musically but hate the members of?: I don't really listen to music, I listen to lyrics, so I don't know

10. What is the most musically involved you have ever been?: I play guitar with a few projects but other then that...

11. What show are you looking forward to?: Next time I get to see Poorboy Johnson and the Goddamn Rattlesnake (God I hate that name)

12. What is your favorite band shirt?: I have one, the New York Dolls

13. What musician would you like to hang out with for a day?: Ryan Adams

14. What musician would you like to be in love with for a day?: Who knows

15. Metal question - Jeans and Leather vs. Cracker Jack clothes?: Uh, Jeans and leather

16. Sabbath or solo Ozzy?: Sabbath

17. Commodores or solo Lionel Ritchie?: Neither

18. Punk rock, hip hop or heavy metal?: Punk rock and hip hop

19. Doesn't Primus suck?: They are ok

20. Name 4 flawless albums: Kind of Blue - Miles Davis

21. Did you know that filling out this survey makes you a music geek?: I disagree

22. What was the greatest decade for music?: Each decade has great music

23. How many music-related videos/DVDs do you own?: 1

24. Do you like Journey?: Yes

25. Don't try to pretend you don't!: I won't.

26. What is your favorite movie soundtrack?: High Fidelity

27. What was your last musical "phase" before you wised up?: Punk

28. What's the crappiest CD/record/etc. you've ever bought?: Who knows

29. Do you prefer vinyl or CDs?: CD's, vinyl is a pain

30. All totaled, how much do you spend on music a month?: I don't even want to think about the amount per month I spend on music

The show was really good last night. We showed up a little late, but it was all good. I walked in right as Jay and Fletcher were playing, and it was good. Jay was really funny as well. I liked most of the other bands as well, barring the Few, they need to get a new singer.

It was a good night, no plates were thrown.

Optional Title

2005-10-05T05:30:50Z

As the days have passed by me, in what seems like hours, I have come to the firm conclusion I want to be a writer. Maybe it is from the immense inspiration I have had in regards to my poetry. In a span of five days I have written more then a dozen poems, most are drivel, but the important thing is my mind is working creatively again.

This wave of motivation may be from working on the show; getting back up on stage has gotten my "juices flowing" as they say. I'm not entirely sure who "they are" but that is what they say.

But as I reach into my thoughts to attempt to retrieve the source of my creative outburst, I continually come to one final conclusion. John Rose. When I think of how he told me I could be a writer, I was honestly shocked. I can't remember a time when someone has given me such a compliment in my life.
I can count the number of times my father has told me that he is proud of me on one hand, and I can never remember anyone expressing to me such praise.

I am going to do it. I don't know how, and I don't really care. I want to write for a living. And that is what I am going to do.

flipbook13 @ 2005-10-02T13:46:00

2005-10-02T17:46:33Z

Johnny Cash
Old 97's
Sun Volt
Elvis Costello
Primus
Hot Hot Heat

Ryan Adams
Outkast
Grateful Dead
Everlast
Roy Orbinson

Buddy Holley
Anti-Flag
Ramones, The
Black Flag
Eva Cassidy
English Beat

flipbook13 @ 2005-09-28T17:04:00

2005-09-28T21:04:10Z

For those of you who have ransacked my music collection: If any of you still have the five tracks from Amanda Noa, please let me know. Because I can't find my copy of their CD.

flipbook13 @ 2005-09-27T14:06:00

2005-09-27T18:06:42Z

Two random things that make me rather happy.

1. In one of my friend's classes today, his professor used my car as an example of self expression.

B. My Developmental Writing professor told me that I could be writer.

That makes me happy, along with coming home in a couple of weeks.

I can't believe I forgot to post this

2005-09-21T06:17:37Z

I got cast in one of the One-Acts here at school

The show is The Whole Shebang by Rich Orloff

It's insanely funny.

I am "Man, 40's, unexeceptional in every way"

Optional Title

2005-09-21T04:29:59Z

Survey and a quiz

You are a
Social Liberal
(70% permissive)

and an...
Economic Liberal
(18% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Socialist

Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid

I was also going to another survey about interests. But as I kept generating the page, I realized that the interests on my list were not accurate anymore. Things that I don't want to do anymore. Things that I don't like anymore. And if I was still into the interest in question, I didn't like that I still had it listed. So needless to say I have gone from 150 interests to under 50. And that makes me happy.

flipbook13 @ 2005-09-19T17:45:00

2005-09-19T21:45:46Z

What kind of pirate am I? You decide!
You can also view a breakdown of results or put one of these on your own page!
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey

flipbook13 @ 2005-09-18T23:37:00

2005-09-19T03:38:21Z

To Whom It May Concern

To Whom It May Concern

What would you say to me?
If I said I love you
Would you
Should you
Reject me

I can see it through
Your doll’s eyes
You don’t
Believe
What you
Perceive
To be
My lies

My words reflect
The monsters of
My most inner
Thoughts and feelings
To you, I could not tell a lie

As I try to
Compose my
Thoughts into
Words

I fail
In my seemingly
Effortless attempts
To prove to you
My consistent
Love and devotion

I sat in silence
With what I know now
To be
An unrequited love

I sat in silence
While we both
Thought
About when this
Inevitable day would come

I know now
That you would not
Be the one to reject me

I, I would be the one to reject you
Because I know
I should

The Merits of Rap/Hip Hop

2005-09-09T14:43:56Z

"I met a critic
I made her shit her draws
She said she tought Hip Hop was only guns and alcohol
I said "Oh hell naw!" but yet it's that too
You can't discrimahate because you done read a book or 2"

Outkast - Humble Mumble

As I read every application for this community, the attitudes of the members really gets to me. Specfically in reagards to Rap and Hip Hop. I am huge fan of Rap and Hip Hop, and seems that a good portion of this community is willing to look past Top 40 radio to find good Punk, Metal, Soul, Nu-Metal, and other Rock based forms of music.

But when it comes to listening to Rap and Hip Hop, all they can get is that Rap is full of idiots who only care about Guns, Bitches and 40s.

This disapoints me to no end. The opening stanza of this entry is from Outkast, as you very well can see, I feel this line descripes Hip Hop to a tee. Yes, there is a certain aspect to the music that is about Guns, Bitches and 40s, but there is so much more then that. Take a look at this lines if you will.

"Don't push
Me to close to
The Edge, I'm
Trying not lose
My head.
Sometimes it makes
Me wonder
What keeps me from going under." Grandmaster Flash and The Furious Five Featuring Mel E. Mel - The Jungle

"You can't be passive, gotta be active
Can't go with what looks attractive
Gotta learn all I can while I'm able
Headliner expresses his feeling on those turntables
When we get our chance
to make a good living of the music we program
We don't sell out just to be sold out
Brothers and sisters, do you know what I'm yapping about ?
Coz if they take away our contract
we still got talent and we still got contacts
Coz we're worked real hard to get this far
We're catching the bus before we bought the car
Ya see !" Arrested Development - Give a Man a Fish

"Grab the hook, grab the line
Grab the bait, grab the box and wait
Tackle and shackle the topic the faculty has chosen
Chosen by many, chosen by plenty, chosen by any
man or woman who understand
the topic that's known and
[Go by the dock] flock and clock the topic
as I drop my hook and get a bite
The reason I'm fishin' 4 a new religion
is my church makes me fall asleep
They're praising a God that watches you weep
and doesn't want you to do a damn thing about it
When they want change the preacher says "shout it"
Does shouting bring about change ? I doubt it
All shouting does is make you lose your voice
So on the dock I sit in silence
staring at a sea that's full of violence
Scared to put my line in that water
coz it seems like there's no religion in there
Naively so I give it another go
Sitting in church hearing legitimate woes
Pastor tells the lady it'll be alright
Just pray so you can see the pearly gates so white
The lady prays and prays and prays and prays
and prays and prays and prays and prays...it's everlasting
"There's nothing wrong with praying ?" It's what she's asking
She's asking the Lord to let her cope
so one day she can see the golden ropes
What you pray for God will give
to be able to cope in this world we live
The word "cope" and the word "change"
is directly opposite, not the same
She should have been praying to change her woes
but pastor said "Pray to cope with those"
The government is happy with most baptist churches
coz they don't do a damn thing to try to nurture
brothers and sisters on a revolution
Baptist teaches dying is the only solution
Passiveness causes others to pass us by
I throw my line till I've made my decision
until then, I'm still fishin' 4 religion"

50 Cent, Eminem, Jay Z and all the others out there on Top 40 radio, making money talking about bitches and 40s, do not repesent Hip Hop at all. I recomend these artists.

Mos Def
Run-DMC
Grandmaster Flash and The Furious Five
Public Enmey
Common
Talib Kewli
Arrested Delvopment

And if you are interested at all in seeing where the Bitches and Hoe's thing comes from, I highly recommend
N.W.A and Ice T. The fore-fathers of Gangsta Raps

flipbook13 @ 2005-09-09T00:07:00

2005-09-09T04:27:53Z

So I guess since I have a realiable, constant access to internet, I might as well actually update.

I am currently attending school in southeastern Vermont. I am attending Landmark College

The school is the only school of it's kind in the world, it is a two year school solely for students with learning disablities. I am one of 420 students, all of us with learning disabities. Imagine that if you will, 420 AD/HD kids, all one campus. Scary isn't it?

My schedule is full of all none credit course, but that's ok. I am taking a 20th Century History Course, which is really cool. A course on the writing and giving of speeches. An Intro to Reading and Study Skills which I hate.

My last class (which is really my second of the day, but who really cares) is insane. On my first day with this class, I walk into the room and on the board there is a message that says
"Meet me by the tennis courts, by the light gray van in five minutes"

Our professor, John Rose, who looks like Hugh Jackman circa X-Men, is standing there and he recites what is written on the board. Now the only way I can describe this man's speaking voice, for those of you who will understand what this means, is that Marcus looks worse then Ben when compared to this man.

As we all walk to the van he tells us to get in. We all get in and he proceeds to drive us to Basketville, a store in Putney (the town where my school is). He asks for four volunteers, and they get out of the van, he hands them each a piece of paper and gives them a little schpeal. He then drives us to the Putney General Store, where I get out. Standing outside of the store, he gives us the same piece of paper and tells us to enter the store, as discretly as possible, pick someone out, and follow them. We are to answer the questions on the piece of paper. He also tells that if we get caught and are in trouble he will take the blame. The past two days have been spent watching The Atomic Cafe

How fucking cool is that? Screw dealing with the syllabus, screw going over the structure and purpose the class. He's creative. I think I'm the only one in the whole class who got any of it.

Putney's pretty cool. We're two hours away from Burlington and Boston. We're four hours for New York City and pretty damn close to Marlboro. Simon's Rock isn't too far either, but I don't know how far.

Before I leave, I will you give these words of wisdom. "Be Good, And If You Can't, Be Good At It.:

flipbook13 @ 2005-09-05T13:28:00

2005-09-05T17:28:46Z

Oh for those who do not know, I am currently in southeastern Vermont

flipbook13 @ 2005-06-01T09:40:00

2005-06-01T13:59:10Z

Thomas Tagged Me

List your current six favourite songs, then pick six other people that have to do the same.

1) Chris Issak - Wicked Games
2) No Doubt - Spider Webs
3) 3 Doors Down - Let Me Go
4) Marc Broussard - Home
5) Ryan Adams - New York New York
6) Anna Nalick - Breathe (2AM)

soumma
bobcat_sal
covered_in_clay
bigcurlygiant
simplyponder
inlivingcolour

FNG

2005-05-13T00:50:21Z

Top Five Records Of All Time.
The albums on this list have to fit three criteria.
A) The album on a whole, does it flow well. If it is a choppy album, is it intentinally choppy.
B) Indvidual songs, can all of the songs stand on their own. If I were to skip to a random track, would I be satisfied.
C) Finally, is it a good ablum for both straight up listening to and also as background music. Can I through the record on at a party or discussion and not have it be overpowering.
In my most humble opinion, these five albums meet my criteria.

In No Particular Order:
1) Ryan Adams - Heartbreaker
2) Dropkick Murpheys - Do Or Die
3) Metallica - ...And Justice for All
4) The Doors - Strange Days
5) Weezer - Pinkerton

I Concur

2005-05-12T23:28:14Z

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

So Tired...

2005-05-03T22:22:59Z

I am so fucking tired, I can't even explain it. I got a full 8 hours last night and have been sucking down coffee left and right.

On the plus side of things I got accepted to work on cast for the Rocky Horror Picture show. It sucks that I have to start out on props, but hey, you gotta start somewhere right.

Stacy's isn't so bad anymore because we have a full time day manager who actually likes me and the work I do. So that's cool.

...

Emily.

2005-03-26T05:59:06Z

Emily. Oh where do I begin.

I met Emily when Davi asked me to cover for him at a forum at the Unitarian Universaslit Church Of Arlington.
My first reaction to meeting her was: "Wow, she's attractive".

I got to know her better when I joined the youth group at UUCA.

We've been friends for three years now and I don't see us ever having a(nother) fallout.

We've had our ups and downs but she rocks>

Emily goes to Oberlin College.
She sings.
She acts.
And she is awesome

SAMO SAMO SAMO SOMA SOMA SOAM MOAS SAMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-25T22:00:06Z

I really can't tell you when I met the fool known as Sam. I've known him for so long. He is one of my closest friends as well as one of the longest running ones.

We most likely met when I moved back to the Northeren Virginia area.

He's tall. Has curly hair. Has a dog with curly hair. And a brother with not so curly hair.

Sam is currently a sophmore at the College of Wooster.
He sings.
He acts.
He does tech work
And He is in a frat

Starting with the easy ones

2005-03-24T03:32:37Z

Matt.

I met Matt one night in the fall at Dinner Two.
Matt works (or did work, I'm not sure about that) at at a video store in Mclean
Matt has a girlfriend.

I met Matt through Mikey B.

I don't know a whole lot about Matt. Which is why this is so short.

flipbook13 @ 2005-03-23T14:54:00

2005-03-23T19:55:09Z

Comment to this entry with your name and I'll write a post about you.

flipbook13 @ 2005-03-02T23:13:00

2005-03-03T04:13:22Z

Which Family Guy character are you?

flipbook13 @ 2005-03-02T15:12:00

2005-03-02T20:13:55Z

In the past few days I have bought these cds

Stray Cats - Live And In The Studio
The Pogues - Rum, Sodomy, and The Lash and Peace and Love
Steve Earle - Ain't Never Satsified
Old 97's - Satellite Rides
Am very pleased with all